i feel so isolated so perplexed... SOLITUDE has me engrossed.... im drowning in an ocean of pain and agony the waves hit me with cruel force knocking all the hope and fertility right out of me. I cry for help... but its never loud enough... DESPAIR.... the people around me dont notice im happy about because even if they did notice they wouldent be able to do anything about it.... i conceal myself or at least try to.... my black cold cold heart is weary....being broken donw down by reality every time i feel as though... i am o.k..... the philosophy of my brain is so subtle that not even the greatest mind can understand i want to be happy but it seems as though that is an impossible feat.
