and now i feel as though my life is hanging by a thin thread
happiness comes and it leaves as quick as it appears
my body feels as though it has been stabbed with an unlimited amount of spears
the pain is hurting me and making me more angry as time go
and my love for her is the only thing i want to show
jus as my mind state was healing from the blood reign
that girl that wants to kill me is calling and her name is mary jane
so much pain so much solitude so much loneliness so much of everything
i cant deal with so much shit i cant include
i always ask why... why is my life such a big mess why am i here
do i have a point on earth for me to jus think this i say "nothing" and
to me that shit hurts
happiness for me is something that i need to survive
and love is the thing i need for me to feel alive
that fuckin dude to me appears to be the devil
he takes away my happiness and gives me pain to an unidentified level
she calms my soul and art heals my brain
music is my savoir but.. that guy drives me insane
me knowing that he has want i want
is really making my soul feel very gaunt
but will "That Girl" ever know how he makes me feel
will she ever know that he is killing me...
will she see that he is the reason for my pain and agony
will she ever see it.........
the sex that is endured is something that i crave every day
but thats something he has and she enjoys.. i want it to go away...do u know how that makes me feel??........it kills me to know these things....
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so once again my happiness only lasted for only hours this time
i love her.... i hate him.....i wonder.... is that such a crime
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